what to do
I’m bored.
I’m not bored in that way in that I don’t have anything to do. There’s plenty to clean, things to paint, chores and what not. I’m bored in that way where I feel like I need a massive make-over and overhaul in my life.
Nothing has made me realize this more than my job. It’s precisely that; a means to an end. A great way to pay the bills but it’s temporary and eventually it will end. The problem is that I have no idea when. Word on the street is that it will be over by the summer but we just don’t know. With litigation, things can go on to infinity or they can just end abruptly out of the blue.
It’s kind of a love/hate situation; I love the fact that I have a steady income (which is a massive blessing in this quagmire of an economy) but I hate it because of the tediousness of the work.It’s mind-numbingly dull and totally monotonous. Every day is like the next. The only thing that changes is the drama at the office, which there is plenty of. That’s precisely the problem; everyone is bored and unhappy so they just jack each other up. The insane thing is is that one day you’re pointing your finger and laughing at these people and the next day you’ve become one of “these people”.
I realized how small my life seemed to feel when one of my coworker’s sons died recently. It was a terribly sad event and while I didn’t get along with this woman all the time, I felt really sad for her loss and for a brief moment, most of the office put their buffoonery aside and came together to help her. Well, now she’s back and the buffoonery has resumed and I”m sitting here wondering what the point of all this is.
Right now I”m grasping at whatever straws that I can to remind me that life is bigger than all of this and that there is a whole world out there. The hard thing is that is hard to grasp at anything when you feel like you’re being sucked dry by a negative environment or everyday is a fight for your soul.
So in a way, I”m looking forward to the end of all this but I will miss the money. And then I have to figure out waht I need to do when this all ends. For now, my plan is to wait for the next gig to come along and pray that I don’t end up meeting most of these people again. But I know I can’t keep doing this forever. I have to find a new way, and that’s the hard and scary part.
Anybody got any ideas?
In this economy, we’re all one paycheck away from losing jobs. I’m bored too and still don’t know what I really want to do with my life and hell I’m 51. I guess the thing to do is live one day at a time and be thankful for friends, family and good health.
cheers, bluez, i’ll drink to that!
Me too! (I’ll drink to that)
You have hit the needle on the head here J. I to feel ready for “something more.” My only advise is to stay open and keep moving forward. Your next Big Thing is a ‘thought’ away. As we know from The Alchemist.